Streets of Heaven

I added a song to my playlist.

I hadn't heard the song for awhile. It's called "Streets of Heaven" by Sherrie Austin. Some might say that it's not a good song, because it's about a woman who is sitting by her young daughters side in a hospital praying that God will let her daughter live. She's arguing with God and giving Him reasons why He shouldn't take her little girl.

But you know, it's a real song. I remember having these same kind of feelings. Pretty much being angry that God chose to take something away from me. But then in the end the woman comes to terms with her grief and allows God to have His way in her life no matter how it turns out....that is so like me now.

I posted right before this about how God is working in me and I've been slowly learning to allow Him to work His plan no matter what it is. Just had to share about this song. I think it's a good one.

Healing

I've seen some healing in my life since I last posted. Wanna know how I know this? I started on a couple projects that I couldn't work on before.

I love to cross-stitch, and when we decided to start our family (as in trying for a baby) I bought a bunch of bibs to cross-stitch. I ended up with so many that I decided to give a few away before we had our own baby. So I would stitch them up, and give some away as baby gifts (most to neices and nephews). But as the pile of bibs gets smaller, I find it harder and harder to give them away (knowing I may never get to use them on my own). So, I quit working on them. I put them in a bag and hid them under my bed (since I never clean under there anyway..lol).

Not to long ago, my sis-in-law asked me to stitch something for her oldest daughter (something I had made for her youngest daughter so they'd match). I have had it for months and months and I'm just now picking it back up to work on it. And with it I pulled out two more bibs. Because I have 6 months to get these new bibs done before I get a new niece or nephew. I admit I cried...no that's not right...I sobbed about taking them back out and knowing that after these two are gone I have 6 bibs left to stitch.

...But I've been doing something new most days. I've been reading or singing a couple hymns that have powerful words. One is "I Have Decided To Follow Jesus" and the other is "I Surrender All". If you get a chance to read the words or hear the songs they are good. My favorite version of these two songs are done by Selah so listen to them if you can.

This has been a turning point for me. I've decided to surrender all to Jesus. I am choosing to be content where He has me. Yeah, I've been through some tough times, I've had times of grief, but He's still there. And as hard as it's been to let go of some things in my life, it's been freeing. I'm also enjoying the blessings I have in life a lot more as I give it all to Him.

Is there a song or songs that touch your heart when times are tough? It doesn't have to be a hymn. It can be a praise and worship song, a contemporary Christian song, a country song, a rock song, a rap song, any song out there. I would love it if you would share it with me. I would love it if you would share as a comment what song touches you and why it touches you. It might just speak to others. That's how I've found some of the songs that touch me....others have mentioned them as healing songs for them.

Lord, I don't know about the readers, but I give my all to You. All to You I surrender, all to You I freely give. I pray that we would all find the peace of surrendering to You. God touch lives in ways that need touched. Heal hearts that are hurting and grieving. I love you, Lord.
Amen

Word of God

So has anybody thought about their list of things to be thankful for? I've needed mine this past week more than I realized. I was not being thankful for what I have. I have really been struggling with bitterness, not being content where God has me, and being angry where I am in life. Not a good combination. Yesterday after a really good time of feeling sorry and pouting, I picked up a book full of scriptures, that are grouped into different subjects that a person might be dealing with, and all the verses that are speaking to me, I've been writing on notecards to hang on my mirror or bedroom wall. I knew in my head that I was supposed to go to the Word of God when I was feeling down, but I guess I had to experience it yesterday to watch the miracle that happened. It's hard to admit it, because I have this issue with pride and I don't like to admit that other people are right (cause I should always be right...lol). But I have to say that someone gave me some good advice yesterday and until I read about it in scripture I was angry with them and shut them out. I guess that means that today I get to go and apologize for being angry with them. Wow, that's a hard thing to do, you know. Especially for someone who seems to be so full of pride and always wants to be right.

My advice for today? Stay in the Word of God. Even if you are angry. Even if you have to read it out of a scripture book that puts verses with certain subjects. Just be in God's Word in some way. He will speak to you. He's so good at that. Learn with me about the healing hand of the Lord.

Lord, I admit that I'm full of pride. I admit that I was angry yesterday when I got good advice from my mom. I'm sorry for that. Forgive me. Please help me lay down my anxiety, bitterness, anger, depression, etc. and to be content with where I am and what I have. God you have a perfect plan for my life, and I admit I don't understand it one bit sometimes. But that's where trust and faith come in. But I need Your help to get through, I can't do it alone. Please be with the ready, send your Holy Spirit to them and lay your hand on them. I love You, Lord and I trust you with all my heart.
Amen